Tuesday, June 14, 2011

These Polka-dotted Shoes Were Made for Walking

I have been a very loyal blogger for a couple of years now. This began as a place for me to journal the range of emotions I was dealing with as a result of infertility and my miscarriage. I found I had this internal dialogue that just needed an escape so, for some reason, I decided to make it public. I don't know how many people have actually read all of the words I've put here, but I know there have been a few and that's enough for me. I know I helped at least one stranger through her struggle with infertility as well. I've said it before, but the journey it took for us to have a child has helped me grow. I feel like what was once an ugly, sad and dark time has transformed into something entirely different. Now that I'm "on the other side" of it all, I am able to look at it with an objective eye. At the risk of sounding overly metaphorical, it's now just one patch on the quilt of my life and it adds to the overall beauty of the collection. A collection of experiences that I've had and will have in the future.

I've been debating on whether or not to continue posting here now. That is why I've been absent for a little while. I was sort of avoiding the decision. I also feel like I have other avenues to share our life with Jordan (read: Facebook). It may not seem like a big deal but this blog is very personal to me and I didn't want to just abandon it one day without a formal goodbye. I'm not absolutely certain that I will never post anything again, so this may be more of a "to be continued" than "the end". I don't know what the future holds for us in regards to having more children. We may end up at the RE's office again or we may adopt. I may feel the need to chronicle our next adventure and if I do then I will be back. I have prayed for guidance and I know God will lead us down the path He desires for us. I don't feel like Jordan will be our only child but only time will tell. For now I am just waiting for the answer to that question.

Of course, what would a post be without pictures? Pictures are always a must.

About to take a dip in the baby pool.

She learned sign for hat and then decided that wearing one was okay after all.

I just love this one.

Using her new walking skills to explore the backyard with Daddy.

Another one of my favorites.

A family portrait.


Anonymous said...

Don't stop posting!!! I do not have a facebook so your blog and preg.org is my only way to find out what you are up to!!!!!!! Jordan is such a cutie pie!!! Can you believe how big our girls are getting??

The Tame Lion said...

Wonderful! Awesome!